26 - happy birthday Anaïs!

Congrats, Anaïs!
26 - a magic year!!!

Wish you a wonderful year ahead
´though tonight might end
the squirrel wasted way...

Get it done!

"Normality is a paved road.
It's comfortable to walk on
but no flowers grow on it."
- Van Gogh.

Stubbornness in men

Wild moon

"Wild moon woman
you were not made to be tame.
You are an earthquake
shaking loose everything
that is not soul."

Well read

"A well read woman
is a dangerous creature."

Secret password

"Love is the secret password to every soul."

In like

I'm in like with you.
Yes, honey I am.

Magic in my veins...

"You can not tame the spirit
of someone
who has magic in their veins."

Presenile Alzheimer's disease

Starting to wonder about H...

Thought his talk about not remembering our wedding and only having blur memory glimpses starting at the latest
around four years ago...
Was some kind of bad joke.
Today I'm not so sure.

Sadly he doesn't want to do a neurological check-up with memory tests etcetera.

Alzheimer's disease develops when proteins build up in the brain to form structures called 'plaques' and 'tangles'. Alzheimer's is the most common type of dementia in younger people and may affect 30 to 35 per cent of younger people with dementia. However, this is a much smaller proportion than in older people with the condition, up to two thirds of whom have Alzheimer's disease.

Another difference is that younger people are much more likely to have an 'atypical' (ie unusual) form of Alzheimer's disease than older people. Atypical Alzheimer's disease is when the first symptoms are not memory loss, which is the most common symptom of late-onset Alzheimer's disease. Instead, the first symptoms are usually problems with vision (in posterior cortical atrophy), speech (in logopenic aphasia) or planning, decision-making and behaviour (in frontal variant Alzheimer's disease).

In some people with early-onset Alzheimer's disease there is a very clear inheritance of the disease from one generation to the next. This genetic form of the dementia - familial Alzheimer's disease - is caused by rare mutations (defects) in three genes. (Chromosomes 14, 19 & 21.)
These mutations are found in between 7 and 12 per cent of all people with early-onset Alzheimer's.

Symptoms of familial Alzheimer's disease usually start in someone's 30s, 40s or 50s; the earlier the symptoms start, the more likely the disease is to be genetic. However, familial Alzheimer's disease is extremely rare. It affects only about 500 known families worldwide and probably accounts for much less than 1 per cent of Alzheimer's disease when all ages, young or old, are considered.

People with Down's syndrome and other learning disabilities can also develop dementia at an early age. Alzheimer's disease is the most common type of dementia in people with Down's syndrome. This increased risk is thought to be associated with the extra copy of chromosome 21 which most people with Down's syndrome have. Chromosome 21 carries the gene for amyloid which forms the plaques in Alzheimer's disease.
(Text from http://www.alzheimers.org.uk)

H's aunt died of Alzheimer's in 2008.
They also have Down's syndrome
in the family...

Young-onset dementia less often appears as memory loss, which is the most common symptom of dementia in older people. Instead, it more often appears as changes in behaviour (eg apathy, irritability) or personality (eg loss of empathy).

Signs of presenile Alzheimer's:


A person with Alzheimer's disease may put things in unusual places. They may lose things and be unable to go back over their steps to find them again. Sometimes, they may accuse others of stealing. This may occur more frequently over time.


One of the most common signs of Alzheimer's is memory loss, especially forgetting recently learned information. Others include forgetting important dates or events; asking for the same information over and over, Increasingly needing to rely on memory aids (e.g. reminder notes or electronic devices) or family members for things they used to handle on their own.


Some people may experience changes in their ability to develop and follow a plan or work with numbers. They may have trouble following a familiar recipe or keeping track of monthly bills. They may have difficulty concentrating and take much longer to do things than they did before.


People with Alzheimer's can lose track of dates, seasons and the passage of time. They may have trouble understanding something if it is not happening immediately. Sometimes they may forget where they are or how they got there.


People with Alzheimer's often find it hard to complete daily tasks. Sometimes, people may have trouble driving to a familiar location, managing a budget at work or remembering the rules of a favorite game.


For some people, having vision problems is a sign of Alzheimer's. They may have difficulty reading, judging distance and determining color or contrast, which may cause problems with driving.


The mood and personalities of people with Alzheimer's can change. They can become confused, suspicious, depressed, fearful or anxious. They may be easily upset at home, at work, with friends or in places where they are out of their comfort zone.
(From alz.org.)

Worrisome indeed!

(Illustration by Claudia Koch.)

Quoted Thursday

Thursday quotes:

"I no longer look for the good in people.
I search for the real.
Because good is often well dressed
in fake clothing.
Real is naked and proud."

"I love the ones who are in my life
and make it amazing
and I thank the ones
who left my life
and made it even more fantastic."

"Entertain a clown
and you become part of the circus."

A little weird

We are all a little weird...

Still looking

"We are all searching for someone whose demons play well eith ours."
-Haris Lithos.

Purple rain

"Purple Rain" (1984).
The library in town
also had this Prince movie.
Awful script, badly acted
but definitely some
groovy Prince

Saturday Night Fever

"Saturday Night Fever" (1977)
Try to distract miself.
Despite the social problems
the movie try to put the spotlight on.
It is a good feeling film.

Did you know that the lead - John Travolta - is a certified pilot?


Bob Dylan - The definitive B.D. songbook

I enjoy the library in this little town.
Diving deep into Dylan's lyrics in:
"The definitive Bob Dylan songbook".
325 songs to "scrutinise".

No thigh gap - Ashley Graham Barbie

Curvy supermodel Ashley Graham is being named one of Sports Illustrated's 2016 rookies and starring in a DNCE music video. She has been a force to be reckoned with in the fashion industry. Graham will also be honored with Glamour's Woman of the Year Award for her work as a body activist.

Mattel decided to make a Barbie after her. Ashley Graham zeroed in on her Barbie to wear a sparkly Opening Ceremony bodycon dress, a Sonia Rykiel cropped jean jacket decorated in patches and spiky Pierre Hardy boots — an outfit she'd worn herself in the past.

Graham also had another request for her doll: no thigh gap.

"She had to have her thighs touch. No ands, ifs or buts about it. And I asked for cellulite but obviously plastic and cellulite don't go hand in hand."
"It was important that the Barbie resembled me as much as possible. The thighs touching was one way to show young girls that it's OK for your thighs to touch, despite society saying that a 'thigh gap' is more beautiful."

Text from hollywoodreporter.com.

Supermoon/full moon November 14, 2016

The full moon of today, November 14, 2016, is the biggest, closest and brightest supermoon of this year.

The full moon is a “Perigee” Moon—when the moon reaches the point in its orbit that is nearest to Earth.
This moon will be nearer to Earth than it’s been in 70 years. While the moon won’t technically be getting any bigger, it will appear up to 14% larger than when it is at its furthest point.
Tonight's full moon is the closest full moon in the 21st century and it won’t come this close to Earth again until November 25, 2034.
Besides appearing large and bright in the sky, this extra-close Perigee Moon/Supermoon will also have a more dramatic effect on the tides.

November’s full moon was called the Beaver Moon by both the colonists and the Algonquin tribes because this was the time to set beaver traps before the swamps froze, to ensure a supply of warm winter furs. It was also called the Full Frost Moon by Native Americans.

(Fact support from almanac.com)

The Supermoon in Taurus over Lac Léman/Lake Geneva. "Loading" some of my stones and holy water from Lourdes with full moon energy.

At the Taurus supermoon, find beauty in boredom, wisdom in waiting, holiness in the humdrum and the test within tolerance. Enlightenment isn’t measured by how long we can meditate. It's enduring the crazy without losing our cool. Breathe through something that seems really dark and just plain crappy right now. Remember: it's always darkest before the dawn.

Leonard Cohen "leaving the table" - RIP

"There’s a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in". From "Anthem".

Leonard Cohen has passed over. One of my emotional heroes. RIP.
(Sept. 21 september 1934 - Nov. 7th 2016).

With Nick Cave who does a touching bare cover of Cohen's "I'm your man".

Leaving the Table
Lyrics by Leonard Cohen

I’m leaving the table
I’m out of the game
I don’t know the people
In your picture frame
If I ever loved you, oh no, no
It’s a crying shame
If I ever loved you
If I knew your name
You don’t need a lawyer
I’m not making a claim
You don't need to surrender
I’m not taking aim
I don’t need a lover, no, no, no
The wretched beast is tame
I don’t need a lover
So blow out the flame
There’s nobody missing
There is no reward
Little by little
We’re cutting the cord
We’re spending the treasure, oh no, no
That love cannot afford
I know you can feel it
The sweetness restored
From his last "You want it darker".

Traveling light lyrics by L.C.

I'm traveling light
It's au revoir
My once so bright, my fallen star
I'm running late, they'll close the bar
I used to play one mean guitar
I guess I'm just somebody who
Has given up on the me and you
I'm not alone, I've met a few
Traveling light like we used to do

Good night, good night, my fallen star
I guess you're right, you always are
I know you're right about the blues
You live some life you'd never choose
I'm just a fool, a dreamer who forgot to dream of the me and you
I'm not alone, I've met a few
Traveling light like we used to do

Traveling light
It's au revoir
My once so bright, my fallen star
I'm running late, they'll close the bar
I used to play one mean guitar
I guess I'm just somebody who
Has given up on the me and you
I'm not alone, I've met a few
Traveling light like we used to do

But if the road leads back to you
Must I forget the things I knew
When I was friends with one or two
Traveling light like we used to do
I'm traveling light

Trump elected president in USA

Donald Trump,70, got elected. Triumphs. Apparently America wanted a reality show prankster, republican, businessman, sexist and racist as it's 45th president.

A wall against Mexico, ambivalence in the foreign politics... God save America, will the White House turn into a house of horror? The democracy is shaken. The $ falling... The markets plunge but probably will stabilize —buoyed by massive gains for investment banks, private prisons and weapons manufacturers.

(President Trump is a Gemini, born the same day as H, June 14th.)

Conquering the cold

H bought me Advil and "Miel/Honey de Manuka" from NewZeeland when he was in town. Considerate of him.
The essential oil from Manuka is to spray my mouth and sore throat with. Not too bad actually.
I already had some Kleenex "balsam menthol" at home for my nose and fresh ginger, garlic & honey to boost my immune system.
Guess I'm fully equipped.

Still on the survivors...

Amazingly beautiful aren't they? The two survivors.

Healthy hugs

Animals know by instinct. Oxytocin yourself!

Rumi, dear Rumi

"... Miracles dwell in the invisible."
Bien sûr, Rumi! I'm in your team!

Cold and flu infested

Not common... caught a flu or cold. Sneeze and cough "bark" through the day. Slightly dizzy due to the fever and headache. Definitely no aqua biking in this state.
Treating myself with home made apple pie by yours dearly and some vanilla ice cream.
Killed my time between phone calls watching "Love & Mercy" and "Tango lessons". The first well meant but booooring. The second by Sally Potter pretentious and BOOOOORING!

"You will always be fond of me...
I represent to you all the sins
you never had the courage to commit!"
- Oscar Wilde.

Quote of the day

"You can't photoshop a personality."

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