Zenitude



















Stay Zen!
Zenitude

Soap bubbles



Free



Know better



Black corner














Cool new store in town. 
In need of a new bag
if I had money to spare
 I'd buy it here. 

I dream on 
and maybe baby I can afford
 a tee or something for Xmas
as I don't  expect anything
from Santa Claus
(though I've been 
a VERY good girl 
in my own special way...)

Sweet darling muse Anaïs
sent me a message 
asking for the price of the bag...

Please quota



Organic/ecologic chocolate




Organic/ecologic chocolate
by Lynn Pilling
(a Christmas gift from work)
a bit roughed up from the mail flight. 
Inspired by people.
A human touch. 








 lynnpillingchocolatier.com

Christmas decorations for 2014


Some snow on the alps
mountain tops
in Switzerland. 







The old chalet
viewed from the kitchen window. 



(How I HATE
that damn door!
It was wrongly ordered
should have been opaque glass
for the feng shui.
This spring
H tricked me to draw
a wooden cover for the glass. 
I had like two hours before
the carpenter came. 

Idiotic me did
with measurements
a yin & yang
wood layered in different directions...
but H cancelled it all
without telling me of course.)



Probably
Influenced by

Buccellati's
Golden rings...


Hard to see but this is 
the silhuett
 of my Christmas tree 
come to be. 


I wonder if I ever will get
The Kiss by Klimt
on the wall?


Finally I NAILED the curtains length!





The flat in Sweden
has a star theme. 

While I go:
Scarce.
Minimalistic.
Snowflakes. 

Lussekatter 2014


My home made 
Lussekatter 2014
with saffron and bio raisins
Yummy!

Lucia 2014




So very Swedish. 
Celebrating Lucia

Anywhere



What I see



Morning view of the Swiss side. 
Rushing off for the aqua biking. 











A poor dead mouse 
outside Buddha-Bar Spa at the Hilton. 


One of all the neighbor's cats. 

Penny Dreadful & Reeve Carney


Reeve Carney,
(Singer-songwriter-actor)
Aries, April 18, 1983,
as Dorian Gray in Penny Dreadful
















Penny Dreadful
the TV-serie.
Eye candy á la dandy decadent 
Dorian Gray,
 vampires, werewolves, 
spiritism, tarot...
to distract and kill off 
some nights. 

War of the Roses?


Saturday the Full moon
was in Gemini
How much I just found out...

Saturday, in the middle of the night,
H woke me up 
probably drunk
by intensely knocking on the glass 
on my yucky (balcony)door downstairs. 
He demanded my keys 
to the old chalet as he has lost his?!
(I had needed the vacuum cleaner 
earlier that afternoon,
found the door unlocked 
and thought H had forgotten it. 
So I locked and unintentionally 
locked H out when he was out straying...)

IF H had used 
another tone.
Instead of rudely 
pronouncing "please"
as an insult.
(I won't accept more rudeness
 from the French. 
This time I had enough.)
And IF H had asked to borrow 
MY keys nemas problemas
But waking me up without an apology!
Demanding!
Being rude!
Straying!
Added together
 with the full moon vibes..,
I firmly declined
with a "no"
and added 
"as you just been f***ing around."
(Totally ridiculous as it's obvious.)

H angrily walked away
and started hammering. 

This morning, Monday, 
I was going to collect one of my Leonard Cohen CD's 
that still is in the old chalet 
and found the door demolished. 


(BamBam and Pebbles
from The Flintstones.)

My first nickname 
for H was 
"BamBam".

He still lives up to it. 
Destroying 
when he doesn't get his will.
Furious when he doesn't achieve immediately obedience. 
No boundaries.
Bulldozing. 

I assume
it's The War of the Roses.
But I'm not game.
Not wasting time
on lost selfish causes. 
H can go on misbehaving. 
I'm indifferent. 
Slightly amused 
but most of all yawning. 

 I need to heal healthwise, 
find a solution about 
my breast cyst/tumeur
and the best way 
to do that is by being positive 
and having good things/people 
around me. 
I don't have energy 
for egotistical whims 
and annoyances from H. 
I strive for harmony and zen

Luckily the squirrel in the garden 
is on my side 
suddenly showing up daily!



Squirrel cuddle


Squirrel
Kiss & hug

Blabbermouth - glappkäft - bavard/grande gueule



The irony of it all is that
H is away from morning to night 
during the weekends.
We made a promise not to date, see friends/roam around in the evenings...
H is suddenly close
 to Lucifer and the Ordure 
and is even going
 to attend Ordure's wedding. 
 After 14 years of loathing!
Talk about hypocrisy!




Unknown people
(to me)
stop me in town 
 asking me
 about my relationship with H 
and my health!




Why can't H handle "us"
with some dignity and class?
Why being a blabbermouth.
Glappkäft in Swedish. 




It just brings up the old shit.




I have enough with pain in my breast
and other physical worries. 
At least H could 
stick to our mutual agreements.
As usual he only does
what is convinient
 for his own sake. 
Impossible to trust
in any way. 



Melting ice








Melting ice sculptures

Positions & directions















Guess what?
The bed I'm laying in
is positioned
North-South.
So now I know 
what might cause my insomnia
Well, it definitely 
doesn't improve my sleep. 

Texting



You never know


So very true. 

Mantra of the day




Mantra to stick by!

What if?!


Fargo
the TV-serie
diverted my mind 
a couple of nights. 
Recommendable!

Danger



The greatest thing



Love you too



Congrats Anaïs, my muse



Happy 24th birthday, bästis!



Shitty shitty bang bang
that you are ill 
with high fever
and have kidney pain/ache!





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