Lightnings struck 4.40am.
No electricity and the phones
H passed by three hours later
so the phones can be loaded/the batteries recharged.
Back to work.
The tenth victim
Pop movie, anyone?
The tenth victim (1965).
Directed by Elio Petri.
Enjoyable and playful by the eye
I'm not sleeping at night.
Struck some luck
by accident zapped into this pearl.
Mork's mixed emotions. Season 1 episode 19
Mork's attempt to lock up his emotions
backfires and each of his emotions
boil to the surface.
An up lift for a depressive mind.
Lauren Bacall - RIP
(September 16, 1924-August 12, 2014).
Definitely one cool lady
with a husky smoky voice
who passed away after a stroke yesterday.
The love of Bacall's life.
Married from 1945 until his death 1957.
Robin Williams - RIP
I'm totally devastated by the news!
Been watching Mork & Mindy which brightened my days lately
when I've been down. How sad!
Thanks for all the happiness
Kelpies in Grangemouth
Scottish sculptor Andy Scott.
The Kelpies in Grangemouth.
30 meters high sculptures.
Each constructed of
300 tonnes of structural steel.
At "The Helix",
a Visitor park/parkland
between Falkirk and Grangemouth
Thank you H
for sending those interesting scultures to me.
Amphion Sunday afternoon August 10, 2014
Did some paddling
in Lake Geneva.
Thank you Anaïs
for mailing some fun stuff.
It's a duck's world.
Photo by Trey Ratcliff.
Photographer Trey Ratcliff.
Burning Man Nevada.
Biopsy - next step
Full moon in Aquarius
Full moon in Aquarius
on its way.
August 7th was
the National Lighthouse Day
in the USA.
Wish I was a believer with faith.
Guess these words
What did you read?
Silver pockets full 2014
A man and his horse
Fondus du macadam 2014
Little happenings here and there
Never have too many
Kate Moss for Stella McCartney A/W 2014
Comes a day
when you are fed up
Surely I learnt that lesson
the tough way.
If a man's "everything"
equals material/economical security.
Sleep at night
Must have been years ago!
What's it all about
Today a female deliberately
walked right into me
when she noticed her company
was flirting with me
as I passed by a café.
The guy ran after me
for her behaviour!
Life is a bitch!
In urgent need of cuddles
and passionate lovemaking.
Life is too short to live tepid.
A guardian angel or two
A cyst in my breast
What the poster isn't showing
is how they squeeze your breast
in between the two
see through parts of the machine.
They found a 2 cm opaque cyst
in my right breast
which is constantly hurtful
sending painful sensations
through my arm.
Among all the negativity and complaints H has thrown my way lately
it all explains
my depressive state of mind.
when I was very low and had been crying
H started accusing me among other things for not liking his friends
(he has seen them, they are a handful, a lot on his own lately). I'm personally not wasting my time nor my energy on people who are ignorant and impolite.
None of them has ever been friendly towards me or my kids.
None of them came to our church wedding in Vongy 11 years ago.
For years I tried to invite them for an evening meal. Results:
The vet with other half "forgot" the invitations twice.
The dentist came once with a girlfriend but never invited us back. Then he blew my molars and punished H and me by not taking a pee break (due to us being 5 minutes late) when we had to follow his car (H didn't know which church outside Lyon it was in) to the dentist's son's first communion.
The mole and his partner have avoided fixing a date.
The last years H didn't want to invite anyone to the old chalet as it was so worn out.
H takes drinks with his friends and eats out with them regularly.
He has lived in this town more or less his entire life.
Who is the foreigner in this town? Who is the one being isolated? Surely not H who has a job in a nearby town, takes his drinks in town without me, misses his bus more often than not in the evening...
H's friends are a bit redneck
not veg., nor cultural, into film, literature or art. Nor caring about the environment.
H criticizes and jokes about them frequently
but damn if I ever noted anything.
So nowadays I stay quiet.
H brought up that he years ago (in the winter 2000 - soon 14 years ago!) left the mountain chalet the dentist owns and was throwing a party in, just to phone me on his way home to wish me a good night as I was in Sweden. Calling himself an idiot and stating he would never do something as ridiculous again and that he only had done it as he felt forced by me!
Talk about keeping a grudge.
At the time I found it so sweet and was deeply touched.
Hearing it uttered
with such disgust and bile
so many years after
was very sad and heartbreaking.
I tried to explain that such things are common when one is in love.
But H has a hard time
standing back for a female,
letting go of his ego, terrified of caring and giving affection unselfishly.
H continued with false accusations from the beginning of our relationship mixed with the time he cheated on me. Diminishing his adultery.
Not facing his own guilt, part in what happened and filtered through subjective bitterness.
Of course H managed to bring me even lower than before. Which must have been intentional.
Without any doubt I learnt that nowadays as my health is failing I have no interest to him.
H has even become close with Lucifer (his mother) and the Ordure (his brother - the nickname by one of his ex-wives) again.
The final and killing stab was telling me that H the last times we have made love has been overtaken by anxiety regretting it. (Not explaining why he each time has been telling me he loves me afterwards.)
My only relief is that I at least haven't caught H's herpes.
Wood & Metal - Hilla Shamia
creates the furniture above
by pouring molten aluminum
onto logs of raw cypress and eucalyptus
that have been cut lengthwise.
Wood and metal united in harmony.
Anaïs and acrobatic Hero
Amphion, Sunday August 3, 2014
A lot of "action"
on little space in Amphion.
Dawn of the planet of the apes
Not in 3D.
Totally sold out on a Sunday afternoon.
(Why are they allowing
kids around four years old
to watch this kind if movie?!)
Not seated beside oneanother.
Thin predictable storyline.
American Disney values.
Ending that aims for a sequel...
Worthwhile just to kill two hours?
Chamonix August 2, 2014
Where André and I took fondue
"Le Monchu", Chamonix,
H prefered the menu.
With the exception
of the timid and sweet
was close to ignorant and rude.
The fondue with "cèpes"
(as long as it was lit)
and the Saint Amour pleasing.
Thank you H